It Hurts...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother meI can take a few tears now and then, and just let 'em outI'm not afraid to cry every once in a whileEven though goin' on with you gone, still upsets meThere are days every now and againI pretend I'm okay but that's now what gets me....

What hurts the most, was bein' so closeAnd havin' so much to sayAnd watchin' you walk awayAnd never knowin' what could've beenAnd not seein' that lovin' youIs what I was trin' to doIt's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you

Everywhere I go, but I'm doing itIt's hard to force that smileWhen I see our old friends and I'm aloneStill harder getting up, getting dressedLivin' with this regret, but I know if I could do it overI would trade, give away all the words that I savedIn my heart, that I left unspoken

- Rascle Flats

Have you loved something so much it hurt?.....I thought about that tonight as I walked out of another movie, (I see to many movies I know) but seriously I thought this very thing, wouldnt it be better to never get so close to someone that you fall so far deep in love with them, that when they are taken away from you, your heart stops as well. I know this is a selfish thing but it is something I have to be honest about.....I know that the greatest gift is love and is better to have loved then to have never loved at all, or is it? This is something I constantly battle with. There is only one thing that I am certatin about in this life and that is Gods love and grace. Everything else is pretty up in the air, and O do I love ceartinty....O I long for the day that I experince love in full bloom, from the man that God sends me and to display that love to him....it realy does hurt sometimes to think of this love....O I shall be patient and be still.....