Stepping Stone....

When I think about the choices that I am faced with I think, wow I am so blessed to even have any choices. I mean think about it, some people only get one choice and that is to hopefully make it through each day with out getting mugged or starving to death. You see I am approaching a very pivotal point in my life, graduating college in May. Yes this is over 5 months away but I do not want to fail to plan! So here are my options as of now.

A. Stay in Memphis, I would have a great Job doing what I love, and getting benefits and all. I can help out with the Cross Country team at my school (which if you know me at all you know that is a passion of mine). I absolutely love my church Fellowship Memphis! I have been teaching the third grade Sunday school. I love those kids. I also am just getting involved with this ministry called digital deacons, volunteering my time to an organization that helps missionaries and churches have affordable websites. And here is the kicker; I will even have a great place to live.

Now here is plan B.

B. I move back to California, I applied for the University of Redlands Credentialing program, to be a high school teacher. I can come and substitute, while I do that. My aunt offered me to live with her when I come back; I have my home church I can always go to. This choice is a little less decided right now.

So you see I have to great choices...but here is the down side to them

If A. then I will be far away from my friends and family!!!
If B. then I will have to search for new open doors, which i know God will open.

So this is what I have been thinking for that past month or so.....

I have come to the grand conclusion that, I never think about what I want!

I always worry about how my friends and family will think about my decision! I am the only one that has to live with me! I guess if I think of myself I always see that as selfish, but God is trying to teach me a lot about living by faith, and not being so caught up in emotions! So with this I am taking another huge leap of faith and I am going to try and stay in Memphis or at least not go home for a little longer, it can't hurt to be away for one more year, I am young and single and God can use that for his glory! I know that I feel that if I am away from home that I will miss out on my brothers growing up and I won’t be there to help out my mom, but I have come to understand that whether I am there or not doesn’t really make a huge difference, they will still grow up!!! I love my family dearly but I know God is not done with me yet here in Memphis!!!