"The chief end of man is to Glorify God...."

So my mind is in a constant state of moving in circles right now...what do I mean, well f you have ever picked up John Pipers book called, "Desiring God" you too might have been in this crazy state of mind as well. With every chapter I am left hungry and challenged for God and God alone.

You see I am doing this Bible study with about 6 other students from my school and we are going through Pipers book and boy is it going to be a good study. I have only read the introduction and the first chapter and I have learned so much already, I can not wait to see what’s to come. Last night was our first meeting it went very well; it triggered a lot of things in my head that I have yet to truly contemplate upon. God's been doing some wondrous things in my life. I am also doing a personal study through Romans right now, which is my favorite book in the Bible by the way, and it's like reading it for the first time. Every time I pick up the Bible that is my prayer that God would teach me and show me things that my over simplifying little mind seems to pass over. But back to the book "Desiring God" the books theme is in short about becoming a hedonist for God, the pursuit of pleasure in God and in God alone.

Last night my roommate Jessica and I had a very in depth discussion about happiness and joy. you see what my mind can not seem to grasp is this whole idea of God giving me joy, not so that I am happy but so that he is glorified.....I mean I know that God does not care if I am "happy" he wants me to have joy and the joy that he wants me to have is in him and in him alone! Ok so I guess I kind of get that, but then I think about things that I do in my own life and how I can either lean very far to the left or even farther to the right. I do not want to be a legalistic by no means but then in order for that not to happen I seem to try and walk this fine line. I guess to put it down simply, I would have to ask the question how does one live in this world and do everything for the glory of God. If I call my self a Christian and want to live like Christ, then why do I watch the things I watch or listen to things I listen too, don't get me wrong it's not real "bad" stuff, but it's not bringing glory to God. But on the other had I could quit all that I do that has no glorification to God and I can be in a bubble and become overly legalistic. So where's the fine line and is there one? I know that in the end I will have one thing that really matters and that is that I will stand in front of God's throne and I will have to answer to all that I have done, so with all this I am still left puzzled but I am also so excited that all this is only making me do one thing and that is hunger for truth and stirring a want and passion for God that is done only by his hand and his hand alone! To be continued.....