I AM ADDICTED!!!

So yes it's true I am officially addicted....You see at about 11 o' clock on Tuesday night I realized that I ran out of Coffee beans. I knew it would be tragic but the pain that come from the withdrawal felt like I was a drug addict trying to quit crack! I went to work yesterday morning and I was fine until about 1 and then I got this sharp pain on the right side of my head and not thinking much of it I kept on working, well the pain just got worse! So then I went downstairs to grab myself a cup of Joe...here's the low down on the coffee at school...
There is a little section in the Cafe where 6 different kinds of Ugly Mug Coffee are kept warm and steamy inside Bunn (TM) containers. (There you may also find sweeteners, creamers, and those little straws.) The Cafe offers this deal: Buy a real Ugly Mug for only 5 dollars, and you can go in and get however much coffee you like whenever you want. So, if you are going to get coffee more than 5 times you are at school, buy the mug. It's an awesome mug and when my mom saw mine she wanted me to buy her one and bring it home to her but I had to say, "No, mom...the other students have to have a chance." Thank you, Ugly Mug, you make my morning so much tastier.
Ok so ya like free coffee!!! Well I had one cup and it just didn't hit the trick because this morning I woke up with that same headache that kept me up late last night. So I threw on my uggs a sweater ad trekked it out to this local coffee shop down the street this morning, called Deliberates, I love it! And well I was there I picked up a 1/2 pound bag of their crème Brule... So that's the end of my story...oh and I saw Freedom Land last night, with Samuel L. Jackson, and Julianne Moore, its a must see! VERY GOOD!

its time to let go....

the secret to life is learning how to live and love with all that you are!!

I am letting go.....I know that it will not be easy but life is for living! Not for being scared, confused, angry, or restless......I know I say that, and I know it will be hard a constant struggle, but that’s the beauty of life that makes it so much fun, the inconsistency, the twists and tears in our plans....I am excited I feel like I have just had a million bricks lifted off my shoulders, I once read something a dear friend of my wrote it said

" I believe that flirting and laughing are good for the soul. Romance is not dead and I love the feelings you experience during courtship. The fast heartbeat, the smiles, and the first time you hold hands and that first kiss...its great!"


I believe this too...and you know what that’s why love and life are a risky business, because you never know how they are going to turn out in the end. But the worst thing you could ever do is not live and not love....and never knows the unwritten story.....

life is beautiful!

It Hurts...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother meI can take a few tears now and then, and just let 'em outI'm not afraid to cry every once in a whileEven though goin' on with you gone, still upsets meThere are days every now and againI pretend I'm okay but that's now what gets me....

What hurts the most, was bein' so closeAnd havin' so much to sayAnd watchin' you walk awayAnd never knowin' what could've beenAnd not seein' that lovin' youIs what I was trin' to doIt's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you

Everywhere I go, but I'm doing itIt's hard to force that smileWhen I see our old friends and I'm aloneStill harder getting up, getting dressedLivin' with this regret, but I know if I could do it overI would trade, give away all the words that I savedIn my heart, that I left unspoken

- Rascle Flats

Have you loved something so much it hurt?.....I thought about that tonight as I walked out of another movie, (I see to many movies I know) but seriously I thought this very thing, wouldnt it be better to never get so close to someone that you fall so far deep in love with them, that when they are taken away from you, your heart stops as well. I know this is a selfish thing but it is something I have to be honest about.....I know that the greatest gift is love and is better to have loved then to have never loved at all, or is it? This is something I constantly battle with. There is only one thing that I am certatin about in this life and that is Gods love and grace. Everything else is pretty up in the air, and O do I love ceartinty....O I long for the day that I experince love in full bloom, from the man that God sends me and to display that love to him....it realy does hurt sometimes to think of this love....O I shall be patient and be still.....