I dont want to grow up...

I don’t want to grow up I have decided!!! lol....

Life is happening so fast so fast...I know I am at a point in my life where this is so called "natural" to be confused and restless, but I don’t want it. I need peace right now, and guidance. My heart and my mind are restless, so many choices, so much time, but what road shall I take, what commitment shall I make.

I need to start acting like the Bobbi that I claim to be. My ideas and thought s about who I want to be, and who I am striving to be are not lining up, actually they seem to be conflicting. Do I want kids and a husband? Do I want the apartment of my own living the single life? Which one am I striving for, which one is the dream and which one is the goal?.....I thought I knew the answer...ha! The only two things I am sure of are these....who my maker is, God, and what my purpouse in this life is, to glorify God and enjoy him forever....everything else is a fog!

Living in The Present

What can I say it’s a new and beautiful week! I went and saw a great movie last night; it made me think about my own situation in life. It was a movie of living in the presence....not the future...and definitely not in the past. What does that mean to live in the presence?


I like to think that each day I make the most out of each and every opportunity, by embracing each hour, minuet, second. This mainly contributes to my relationships with my friends, family, and random people I meet throughout the day. I think that’s what is most important in our lives, is our relationships with others, its what we live for, its like another food group that we need to survive. I can not wait for the day that I have the love of my life to experience this with, to share the ups and downs of life with, and just to be me with, and to live in the present with. But for now I am doing just that living in the present, and being the best Bobbi I can be. I know that this is going to be a life long process, but I am finally coming to the realization that life is going to happen either way....I am so glad that I can live and let go!


I've lived a lot of life,Seen so many things,And I like to think,Nothing surprises me,So I tryTo take it all in stride,No matter what tomorrow bringsBut Your plans for meAren't predictable,And I find Your dreamsSo incredible.Never commonplace,And in so many ways,Always wild and wonderfulOh, You keep me guessing,Holding on tightFor the ride of my lifeWith You, all I can say,There's no such thing as an ordinary day.Since You write the script,I must confess,I don't always knowWhat will happen next,Takes my breath away,Takes a lot of faith,'cause I don't know what to expectEvery time a new adventure unfolds,I realize that I'm not the one in control-Ginny Owens

Who can find one who is "genuine"

It is such a blessing to say that the Lord has led me through another wonderful first week of the semester! I have to say I believe it to be the best week I have had in a long time, with the perfect mixture, of friends, work, school, and church. I know that sounds quite funny but its true. This semester is my last, and I have great expectations for myself.
Have you ever heard the words, "Hey how you doing" and the quickly the voice silence off into the distance. Ya that would be just about everyone we run into these days. We are so courteous and so polite to say hello to one another, but are we genuine? That’s my big quest, to be known as someone that was genuine, not for my own pride, but for Christ alone. The Lord wants us to display a genuineness about ourselves that reflects him and him alone. What does it mean to be genuine?

According to WebsterGenuine: Actually possessing the alleged or apparent attribute or character: Free from hypocrisy or dishonesty; sincere.
Wow!! To say that you someone it genuine speaks volumes about there character. Are there any genuine people out there anymore; are there any genuine Christians out there? I would love to hear your response?

To me this is a struggle the Church has always face sense the 14th Century and before. It’s a question of who we are when no one is looking. I would like to say that Bobbi is always Bobbi and there is no difference in the light and the dark, but is it true is something I must really meditate on and learn about myself.

The Lord is the only one who truly knows who we are; after all he is our creator. Each day we must search inside ourselves to be exposed to know things that the Lord has yet to teach us. Do not ever gets so prideful to think that you can know all there is to know, for at that time you must fall face down and let the Lord intervene, for I have bee guilty of this numerous times and I know that pride is the greatest spiritual CURSE!

New Year, New Chapters waiting to be written!

The simple things in life are what sustain me in this mess ....things like my little brothers hugs, or even my big brothers hugs:) Looking in the backyard at the mountains, the sweet kisses of my brothers in Christ...I love my life! I am amazed that out of the past three weeks that I have been at home in Redlands God has taught me so many things about who I am and what it is that truly makes me passionate about life...yes I have two homes, but really just one, and that is heaven. When I go back in to the hustle and bustle of reality in Memphis I only hope that I will remember that the sun shines down in Tennessee as well as California, and that is just a sweet reminder that God has been good to me.

I have been down some detours these past three years but everything that I continue to experience is one true blessing after another even the bad times:) Actually the bad times more, for I know that those are what have sharpened and strengthened me!! I am excited about entering into a new year and a new semester; this year God willing I will graduate!! This doesn’t mean an ending of something, but a new beginning of something wonderful!! I am going to miss all my friends in Cali, Ginger, Danielle, Just, Jeremy, Shane, Tyler, James, Becca, all my family!!! and the list goes on....but hey life’s to short, and Bobbi has got a lot more of it, God willing:) So goals for the year, Hey I am going to laugh, cry, love, whenever I feel like it this year!!!!!! And you know what I am going to be the best Bobbi that God has called me to be today tomorrow and till eternity!

“Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;Streams of mercy, never ceasing,Call for songs of loudest praise.Teach me some melodious sonnet,Sung by flaming tongues above.Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,Mount of Thy redeeming love.
Here I raise my Ebenezer;Here by Thy great help I’ve come;And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,Safely to arrive at home.Jesus sought me when a stranger,Wandering from the fold of God;He, to rescue me from danger,Interposed His precious blood.
O to grace how great a debtorDaily I’m constrained to be!Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,Bind my wandering heart to Thee.Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,Prone to leave the God I love;Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,Seal it for Thy courts above.
O that day when freed from sinning,I shall see Thy lovely face;Clothed then in blood washed linenHow I’ll sing Thy sovereign grace;Come, my Lord, no longer tarry,Take my ransomed soul away;Send thine angels now to carryMe to realms of endless day.”